Everyone
has some fear to some extent. I don't get scared that easily. My
biggest fear is failure and the future. Don't get me wrong, I'm so
excited to see what my future hold, but it could also hold bad
things. I have the whole thing planned out! I am absolutely terrified
of failure on any level. By definition, failure is the lack of
success or the omission expected or required action. The fear of
failure is called atychiphobia. Failure is not only letting myself
down, but also those who care and depend on me. I have so much
planned for life and I have no room for failure. Failure then leads
to disappointment which is even worse for me. I'd rather those who
love me be mad at me than to be disappointed in me. I am a
perfectionist so I obviously do not deal with or accept failure. I
have never really learned to deal with failure. I'm not sure if that
is a good thing or a bad thing. My fear of failure is what motivates
me give my all 100% of the time. What if I fail to diagnose one of
my patients correctly later on? That one mistake could end my whole
career that I worked so hard for all those years for! The future also
scares me because I have no idea what it holds for me? What if I'm
not able to be a clinical psychiatrist? Then what do I do? I have my
entire life planed out; what will I do if something doesn't work out?
Will that alter the rest of my life? I honestly don't think I'll ever
be able to accept failure. Failure just isn't an option for me. Not
even something to think about. I have too many people depending on
me. There are too many people who need my help. Failure is what
drives me and makes me so determined to always find a way. “Never
consider the possibility of failure; as long as you persist, you will
be successful.” -Brian Tracy
-Samantha Lyles
I think I am kind of like you. I just don't get scared easily. I also hate failing. I want to win or succeed in everything I do. I never do something if there is a chance that I will fail doing it. However, I am not really too worried or scared of the future. I think I have finally realized that God has a plan and he will take care of me. I also think that you will be very successful. You are always so determined and motivated. And if you do fall, I know that you will get back up. -Hattie
ReplyDeleteSam, it's okay to be scared of the future and of failure. I'd go so far as to it's kinda natural. Fearing what may come is okay, because, in my mind, that means you're genuinely concerned about not only your future, but the future of those around you as well. That's kinda a good thing. It shows you care about people, and I think you need to have that quality if you want to be a clinical psychiatrist. After all, how can your patient trust you enough to put their lives into your hands if they can't trust you? :) I know you'll do something great with your life! - Brittany Tucker
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