Blog #11 - Zoe

MY LAST BLOG IM SO HAPPY! Since I don't have internet at home, I don't have a word counter because I don't have microsoft word anymore on this laptop and we lost the app thing on a cd. BUT, I'm trying to type enough that it will be enough sentences and it's midnight and I'm literally about to go to the library at midnight to go email this to my school computer so I can turn it in first thing tomorrow morning. Okay, back to the art. I'm so passionate about art and sometimes I'll actually go to to the met museum's website and just scroll through all the art. Art is so creative and wonderful and a great source to help with emotions. Watercolors are so relaxing, and you don't even have to focus on making it look good to other people, because it's your own and just wonderful. I don't know. Music is pretty cool, too. I've always wanted to play the violin ever since first grade. It's so peaceful and relaxing. I don't know, I think so many things are cool. Speaking about artsy things! I love dance. I took ballet when I was in first grade, but I quit because I was a quitter at everything then. One of my biggest regrets is when I quit ballet. I wish I could go back in time and tell myself to not quit. It may have even helped me get over being anxious and shy about getting up in front of groups of people. I honestly feel myself getting a panic attack when I have to present. Sometimes I surprise myself and do better than I was expecting, but most of the time that isn't the case. I always second guess myself on if I added everything I was supposed to, over if I spelt words right or wrong, and etc. I know I need to just chill because I know I do the best I can, and that more likely than not I'll make a good grade.. I don't know. I just hate presenting. Instead of looking down at the floor, it's better to look at the people that your presenting too's forehead, because you don't have to look at them exactly, and it makes your presentation seem better, I guess. I think. I don't exactly know, I just know that my old therapist told me to do that rather than to stare at the ceiling than ground..