What is Faith When it Comes to Me- Tristan Smithee

 What is Faith When it Comes to Me 

 Have you ever thought about what faith means to you? It is a hard thing to think about. Myself have a few different views on faith. I have faith in God, faith in myself, faith in my family, and faith in my animals. Faith means to me believing in something and not letting anything shake it. Faith is believing in it even when everything is going wrong. It is not something everyone will believe the same thing about, because in the end everyone is different. 

 Faith means a lot of different things to many different people. For christians, it is God. For athletes, it is faith your coach knows what he is talking about. As for me, faith means God, and believing in myself. It means believing I know what I can and will do. Sometimes my faith is stronger than others, it just depends on the day. I have faith in myself on most things, sometimes I need to have faith in someone bigger than me. That is when I turn to God. Above everything my faith is in him, he has my life planned before I know what I am going to do. I am thankful for that, because I am certainly not perfect. 

I, myself, have had to have faith in myself that I will, in fact, be able to move on without my rock -- my mom. As the days after she passed, I lost my faith in myself. I thought I was going to be a goner. She would help me with everything, from homework to my hair. I saw my mom as my hero. After I lost her, I had to figure out who I was going to have faith in now. Honestly, that was the hardest thing in the world for me to do. I was at rock bottom. At this point, I did not believe in my savior, because I was mad he took her home. I didn’t have faith in my dad, nor myself. One day I decided I had to somehow find faith in someone or something. I didn’t know what it would be at this point. As I woke up, I started to make my mind up; I have to have faith in myself and God. I felt these things were everything I know I would always have. Now I have faith I can do anything I want to do, knowing I can do things helps me get through everyday. My lord also helps me get through these things. I feel he is like my best friends nowadays. 

Everyday I have faith in a 1200 pound animal. Sounds crazy right? Anyway, every time I step up and into my saddle, I am trusting my horse with my life. Most people find this a stupid thing to do, I myself find it a normal thing to do. My faith in this animal, is sometimes more than I have in myself. At big rodeos, I seem to go blank on what I have to do, in the end I just pray and have faith that my horses know what they have to do, and forgive me for not doing my part as I should. Yes, sometimes they mess up. They are a living thing, consequently, we all mess up and will continue to mess up. Yet, my faith stays in this animal will know what they are doing. Sometimes it is not easy, but no one ever said it would be. If it was easy everyone would be doing it. My faith in my horse is a great thing to me. 

I myself have faith in the fact that my grandparents will be able to support me through high school and college. They are older, and my grandpa is about to retire. I have faith in them that they will still have the funds to help me with clothes, my horses, my animals, and help me with my gas. I also have faith that they will be able to help me through college. They try their hardest to help me, I know I will never be able to repay them, let's be real, life is expensive. They also have this faith in themselves, and me. They hope I will get enough scholarships to help with the cost, I hope I do too. Vet schools are not the cheapest schools in the world. I do however keep my faith that they will somehow help me find a way to get to my dream. With some help through out the way. Never give up faith in people that want what is best for you, They are important. 

Who said faith always had to be in a good thing? In the end, everything good always has a bad side. With faith you will get hurt sometimes. I had faith in a certain person, I am not going to name names. Anyway, I just in my heart knew they would never leave me when I needed them the most. Last year I was having some issues mentally, and one of my best friends at the time, promised they would not leave me by myself in my own head. As it progressively got worse, they slowly began to disappear. My faith in them began to disappear in them too. I was heartbroken even more. But my other friends began to step in and slowly bring me back to you can have faith in a person and not get hurt. This was a big deal to me. It still hurts today knowing sometimes the person you trust the most, is the one that could turn around and hurt you the worst. It is a sad thought to think. My faith in my other friends however grew and I am thankful for it. 

Faith to me is not giving up on something when everything is messed up. Nothing is going to be easy, life is not easy. Everyone will find faith means something different. Some people may not believe they have faith in anything. In the end everyone is going to believe in something, it is a human instinct. So again I will ask, what does faith mean to you?