Blog 6 - Tatum Tornkvist

School is slowly creeping closer and closer, I'm planning on writing two a day at least and commenting as much as I can before school starts. It's about time I finished this summer assignment. I see everyone's having a good summer and having fun. That's really nice. I've been doing my usual thing, and thinking about what there is to do before school starts. Thinking in general about life. So, I have two? One more week? Either one or two weeks left of volunteer work; I'm actually sad that it's coming to an end for now. I'm actually sad that school is going to begin again since I get to dwell back into the stress hole again. But I'm also happy to see everyone again, see how they're doing, how things have changed in the course of a few months. There's so much to worry about, and so much to look forward to. I'm actually not ready for senior year either. It's scary because, there's so much I want to do at school, so much I want to cherish already. Maybe something new and interesting will happen. Here is, well where I'm going to vent a little. I, didn't want to say before because I got nervous people would be quick to judge me or something crazy like that. But, last month, during the middle of the month I finally went to my psychologist to get properly diagnosed. I was hitting the depression hole around that time and trying to understand what has been going on. I've been getting the proper help and they finally figured out what has actually been going on. I have been diagnosed with Social Anxiety and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I'm sure some of you are familiar with those. If not I'll explain a little of what each is. Social Anxiety is pretty self explanatory in it's name; it's when being in social situations causes anxiety. OCD is basically obsessive thoughts which lead to obsessive compulsions. The doctor said my OCD causes my Social Anxiety, and it actually explains a lot since I can't properly socialize, and being in large crowds, social situations, groups, standing in front of people. It all gives me anxiety. I always thought that if I said the wrong thing- I'd end up making a fool of myself or weirding people out. When I get to know people though, they're not so bad. Maybe I'll manage to conquer it this year, I hope so. I hope everyone's having a good summer so far and that ya'll wrap up your summer assignments before school starts! - Tatum Tornkvist