alexis courtney - #6

Hey guys, this is another somewhat deep one. Someone asked me what my biggest fear was not too long ago. Honestly, I couldn’t even answer. I mean I know that if I saw a spider or snake, I would totally freak out. Also, I run inside if it’s dark outside and I’m by myself. Also, I definitely hate speaking in front of a lot of people. I just wanted a good answer. I wanted to be able to say something that may not be relatable, but truly was my biggest fear. I finally realized what it is. It is “change.” I know, it’s not very relatable and it’s kinda dumb. But when you think about it things changing all of a sudden is the scariest thing ever. I guess I just get so used to how things are. In some case, I take things for grated. One good example that hasn’t really happened to me, but some of you guys might can relate to, is your parents getting divorced. See scary huh? At the moment that you find out, you have no clue what to do. Emotions are crazy, because things won’t be like you have known them always to be anymore. Every time I think about things that are coming that I know are going to be different I try to think of the positives. We are all going to graduate soon and not see each other as much. Ughh I am NOT ready for that. Some positive things are whenever any of us do get to see each other, the time together is gonna be so much more valuable to us. Another thing is we are all going to start a new path in (hopefully) a good direction for us. Some of us may even turn out really really successfully and that’s a good change, but then again some of us are probably not and that’s okay too ig. haha. Changing can have it’s benefits. Getting used to the “new normal” sometimes can be hard, but at the end of the day things could work out for the better. :))