About two years ago, I got caught up in a "friendship" with someone that I knew in the back of my mind was a terrible person for me. Don't get me wrong they are a sweetheart, but we just are not alike at all. We had two completely different goals in life. I allowed them to talk me into believing things that I shouldn't have. I kinda lost myself during that friendship.
Well the thing I "regret" most is not meeting them. It is allowing myself to get attached to them. If you know me, you know I get attached to people very easily. I ended up getting hurt because I allowed myself to get close with them. I allowed that person to make me think different about certain thing I knew were wrong. When I finally realized what I was doing to myself, I ended the whole thing as fast as I could. I wasn't necessarily upset I lost that person. I was upset that I scooped to that level and let that person get into my head. I remember one conversation we had, we were talking and they said, "I mean I believe in God and stuff, but I just get tired of being around church people." That really hit. That was a no for me. As a christian person you are supposed to surround yourself with other godly people and that person didn't understand that. I tried to explain that to the person, but they were firm on what they thought. It broke my heart that they wouldn't hear me out. My advice to my old self would be to never let anyone talk you into believing things that you know are wrong. I do regret getting so attached and letting that person basically run my life for about 6 months, but I don't regret going through the hurt that that person caused me. I needed to feel that to realize that I never want to feel that way again. I learned that I have to be mentally strong and not give into the negative things that are going to come my way.
I highly suggest if you are anything like me, try your very best to not get into a situation where you have to dig yourself out of. You can get to know someone and be friends with them, but please don't get attached useless you know for a fact that you will benefit from that friendship.
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