We were a time bomb
Waiting to explode
You were sheltered
I wasn't prepared
You exploded before my feet
Throwing shrapnel into my eyes
Sending a stab in the back with every outcry
Who were you?
I was a fuse
And you were a match
You set me on fire,
Just to watch me implode...
I had never felt more alive
Until the flame reached me
And now
I'm burning alive
While you
Pour yourself a glass of water
And watch
Who are you?
To stand and watch
Sit and stare as I lit up
Cried in pain
Maybe
You just liked the heat I exerted
It temporarily warmed your
Stone..cold heart
And then when the fire died down
And the ashes crumbled
And night fell
And the breeze blew
You walked away...
You threw my ashes in the air
And watched as I sailed in many different directions
Blew in the breeze
Got tangled up in so many places
Crumbled into smaller pieces
Ran across your feet
Laid upon my grave contemplating
Whether or not
I wanted to hop in
Whether or not
I could take the pain
Of being
Nothing more
Than the dirt beneath your feet
You didn't leave me in the dust
I didn't
Eat you dust
I became dust
Small
Tiny
Rarely ever noticeable
And a nuisance to myself
And to you
a hazard
And I don't understand
How or why
It wasn't the best of interest
It wasn't the best idea for us
It didn't make me happy
But it seems as though my pain may have been used to your entertainment
I tried to blow back in your direction
And fill your lungs
But all that did
Was suffocate you
You couldn't stand it
And you eventually coughed me up and threw me back ok the ground
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
The person
I loved,
Broke
Me
And
My
Trust
Bethany, I can't even begin to describe how much I loved this. I can relate so much to this. I love how you're so descriptive and create such beautiful poems. "Throwing shrapnel in my eyes sending a stab in the back with every outcry." That was my favorite line of all of your poems. I really loved this one. You write with such a passion, one could only wish to have. Please, please, post soon! I always look forward to your posts! - Kim Wilson
ReplyDeleteI swear I'm always looking forward to your posts, they make me feel exactly what you do. You can feel the expression in your writing (if that makes any sense at all, I hope so) and I'm always commenting on your posts, I know. BUT they are amazing. You actually give me motivation to write, although I still suck at it anyway. I like the part where you said "And you eventually coughed me up and threw me back on the ground.
ReplyDeleteAshes to ashes
Dust to dust
The person
I loved,
Broke
Me
And
My
Trust" because I know exactly how this feels. It sucks when the one person you cared about breaks your heart and now it's hard to ever trust anyone again because of him/her. Maybe it was your best friend or an ex. Whoever it is, I hope it's okay. I love you Bessie!!! -Angel Cash