The future has never been crystal clear for me, I've changed my mind on what I want to be when I grow up so many times I've lost count. When I was little I had really big dreams. I wanted to be a pop star or a Disney channel actress. Or a super model, or a professional soccer player. Or a princess. Or the person who finds the cure for cancer. I wanted to write childrens books and have my own talk show like Oprah. I also wanted to be the woman on wheel of fortune who wore the pretty dress and pushed the correct letters. I wonder how much she gets paid? I didn't know what I wanted to be exactly, but I knew I wanted to be someone. Although I still would do any of those things for the rest of my life in a heart beat I'm now realizing that everything I've ever wanted to be isn't realistic. So I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. Because odds are, I'm not going to be anyone. and I'm okay with that, so when I start stressing about the future I think about the verse Matthew 6:34, "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." I believe that what's coming will come and I'll meet it when it does. Whatever God has in store for me I'm sure I'll be happy so for now I'm going to put my trust in him because his plan is greater than mine.
So I probably won't be famous or anything special at all really. Maybe I'm just meant to wear converse and take in stray cats as my own. I might not be the next great american novelist but maybe I'll write something funny on a napkin and it'll turn someones day around. So I think that's pretty okay you know? I'm more content with life than I have ever been before even though I have no idea who I am or who I'm going to be... That's saying something. Is this 250 words? I hope so.
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