I'm someone my five year old self would think is lame and that's okay - Shailey Wooldridge

When I thought a decade into the future this life of mine isn't what I had in mind at all. I'm especially not what I had in mind. I thought I'd be super popular, I pictured myself being like Amber and Ashley from Hannah Montana but not mean. I thought I'd be super pretty with super long, soft hair, and I'd have a cute boyfriend and everyone would be in love with me. I imagined myself driving a red convertible with the top down all the time. I thought I'd have lots of friends and that I'd love them more than anything. I thought I'd be a cheerleader, a soccer player and also in a band. I thought I'd get straight A's in school. Most of all I thought I'd be perfect. Years later I came to find out that there are no popular kids, and if there were I would not be one of them. I'm not super pretty, I have no luck with boys and no one is in love with me. I don't even have my own car yet. I don't have anywhere near as many friends as I thought I would. I'm sadly not athletic, I have trouble in school and I'm as far from perfect as you can get. I am a cheerleader and I guess my hair is pretty long and soft, so at least two of those worked out for me. In my eyes I'm exactly who I'm supposed to be and I've gone through so many things to get here. I was never meant to be that person due to a much bigger picture that I can't see yet. So does it really matter if my five year old self would think I'm lame? I'm a sixteen year old girl. I like to read. I like to nurse random animals back to health in my back yard. I have ear buds in 24/7. I have no idea what I'm doing with my life. I love Ed Sheeran more than my family. I love reading and I love writing. I fuss when I have to get shots and I don't really like high school as much as I thought I would. My teenage self isn't what was pictured eleven years ago but I don't think I'd like being any other way, and that's completely okay. Although I'm still kind of upset that I'm not in a band. So if anyone wants to form one with me, I'll be in my bedroom learning how to play the triangle.