So as many of y’all know, I had a friend die this year in a car accident and it was really hard to go through. It honestly was like walking around everyday living when I felt like I didn’t even deserve it. My friend Hannah was the craziest, funniest, social, most carefree person I knew. If you knew Hannah you loved her. Ever since she died I always felt like it was wrong. How does someone so God fearing and happy lose their life at such a young age? I asked myself that all of the time. Hannah’s death affected me in so many ways & it still does. I feel like there’s always going to be a part of me missing and apart of my past that I’m always going to miss. I got really depressed after Hannah died and I cried a lot & I never slept because I always had dreams about the people I love dying. I was scared to drive because I didn’t want to die, I didn’t want to do anything to get hurt and I put myself into a bubble. This is just one of many examples of emotional baggage. Everyone of us has it. We all have one or even several things that hurt and we carry it around with us at all times. When someone mentions that one phrase that takes you back to your moment of hurt or someone in the store calls for their daughter Hannah & everything comes flooding in. whether it’s something bad we’ve done or someone hurt us, or even beating ourselves up for our flaws. I’ve been praying about how to get rid of my baggage because it’s hard to live my life in the present when I’m still living the past. There is no way you can solve it on your own, it’s impossible. But with God, all things are possible.
I’ve got some bible verses written down for anything you need from God & his answer for that.
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