Procrastination is an addiction in my mind, more than a series of extremely poor choices strung out over the time span of three months. This passage is my first piece of evidence supporting this since I am writing this instead of sleeping. The overall desire to just wait until later to do something that has to be done in favor of something less taxing is almost impossible to say no to, despite the fact that it will hinder the overall quality of the work in the end, the burnout must be worth it since it keeps happening and there does not look like there is going to be and end to it anytime soon, unfortunately. Procrastinating has always been a really big problem I have struggled with. I know what I am doing is just making things worse but I stop caring about what I am working on and tell myself that it always ends up ok in the end even if I have to ruin my life on an essay that should have a taken a week in the span of four hours.
I’m turning over a new leaf this school year, I’ve made it very clear to my family and friends that I need to stay more focused on my work, and they are all under instructions to keep me focused. No longer will I put off doing my homework in favor of sitting in my room doing nothing when I have work to be done. I had to learn this the hard way after spending hours and hours up late at night scrambling to finish projects, that I was completely capable of doing weeks before at a sane pace. The burnout just is not worth whatever few minutes of free time that you may gain from putting off your prior engagements, And taking a horrible grade from something you slaved over does not help you to feel better about our situation. Maybe that can be my new year's resolution for the next few years, rather than just saying I will try to work harder, instead of smarter. Here's to actually doing your work.
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