Blog #9 -Lotti

Continued blog seven....

I don’t think I could have gotten through my childhood years without hannah. When times got tough for me she was my shoulder to lean on and my go to person. When we stopped talking as much I always wished we would hangout more again but I never said anything. We were the real life version of sisters from another mister. To go back in time and hangout with hannah again would be my one wish. To try and kill her 8 year old goldfish, (that is still alive today), and to sneak out into the back yard to catch fireflies. I wish everyday Hannah could come back. Not a day goes by I don’t miss her. I know many people from our school knows how it feels to lose someone, and you guys know it hurts. I always wish I would have had someone who understood what I was going through to be there for me. Sometimes I still do, but I don’t think anyone would understand. And not in a depressing way, just that nobody would understand mine and hannah’s relationship. Knowing that she isn’t starting jr year with me tomorrow breaks my heart into a million pieces. She was so smart and talented. She deserves to be here. Losing Hannah he made me a better person, I know she is always with me and helping guide me through life. Everytime I do something wrong or say something I shouldn’t, I get this sick feeling, which would normally be your conscious, but mine is the sick feeling of Hannah slugging me in the stomach calling me a dumby. Life is short, and we only have one life to live. I’m living mine for Hannah. I’m living for her. I want to do all the things she never got to, so from hannah’s death on, i decided I’m gonna take every risk, be nice to every soul, try my best in everything I do because one day I won’t get to anymore. One day I will be in the ground too, and I don’t want to wish I would have done more.
-lotts