blog three makyla norvell

1. I’ve been working for a while now to find my niche in the world. Be it with some sort of hobby or passion or an area of excelled study, and i’ve realized as i watched my sister develop her art and school work that i can’t help but feel like i'm perpetually one step behind. As i watch her excel in many places where i seem to fall behind in, i can’t help but feel selfishly jealous of her as i work to try to keep up. Where as my sister has always been able to successfully balance her school, art, and free time, i still find myself struggling to turn certain projects in on time or even to find the willingness to even do them. Over the past few years i’ve tried to find a way where i can excel just as much as my sister at something, but so far what little progress i have made has been a bit… sad. I took up playing the piano so i could have some form of “artistic outlet”, but so far i can’t seem to dedicate as much passion or drive to try and truly master an even mediocre replication of professionalism. So when that didn’t work out one hundred percent according to plan, i tried others things. Photography, violin, poetry, academics, heck i even tried sports. Everything i tried i was only half satisfied with, and i can’t help but feel in the back of my mind that no matter what i do i’ll end up settling doing something i can’t stand if i don't find somewhere where i can work without boring myself into a perpetual stupor. I just feel like the whole thing makes me sound whiny or ungrateful even? I hope not.