this is not 350 words but maybe if i give it an intro it will be.
i wrote this one day a while back because i was trying to come to grips with who i was, not who i wanted to be, not what others thought i was but what came to my head when i thought about myself. im still not sure if I like it but 3 of my most trusted critics approved of it and said to post this so here it is.
I am not well liked
I am not perfectly rounded (in appearance or personality)
I am not painfully beautiful
I am not the deepest thinker
or the purest woman
I am not talented but I am determined
I am not a by the book girl but I am not exactly rebellious either
I am not cruel but I am not always kind
I am not the smartest person but I am intelligent
I am not the most devout in my faith yet I fail to draw nearer to the Lord
I care what people say but not what they think, or at least I tell myself that pretty little contradiction
I claim to be adventurous yet my allergies and lack of desire to go outside say differently
I'm an okay writer but not a great one
I have many aspirations yet follow none
I claim to be brave but my voice quivers when I speak
I complain about wasting my life yet sit on my phone for most of my day
I do not have the best reputation but a lot of that was not of my own doing
I want to help heal the world yet at times I can be so selfish and close minded
I am not a marvel
nor am I a super woman who reaches goals before she even sets them or changes the world before purchasing her morning coffee
I am an almost woman trying to figure out who I am, what im doing, who im doing it for and why.
I'm just here, living an anti climactic life and wondering what's next
To me it sounds like you're human. I'm the same way. I think we all have this image of who would should be and we feel like failures when we cannot reach it. I don't think anyone knows exactly who they are and that's okay. This was beautiful and hope you continue to write more like it. I like you're use if contradictions very much. This really inspired me. Whether you know who you are or not you're one of my favorite people. beautiful inside and out. :) -SHailey
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