A child with a plan, a teenager without a clue: Sydney Adams (2)

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE BECAUSE THATS AN IMPORTANT DECISION AND I WOULD LIKE TO GROW MYSELF AND ENJOY WHAT I DO BUT MAYBE I DON'T KNOW WHAT IM GOING TO WANT TO DO IN 4 YEARS I LIKE WAYY TOO MANY THINGS FOR THAT CRAP AND THATS WHAT THIS WHOLE ARTICLE IS ABOUT
  When I was younger, my childhood consisted of playing doctor Sydney and diagnosing my family with made up illnesses. That was always my plan. I was going to be a doctor. I received lab coats and pretend plastic surgery kits for Christmas and there was no other occupation for me. This followed me as I grew, so obviously I thought I had my life figured out. I thought that until this year. This year, I came to the realization that I was interested in every fathomable thing out there. I realized I didn't want to spend my entire life doing one thing, I have all of these interests and passions and couldn't imagine wasting a decade of my life in medical school to achieve a profession that I would soon grow weary of. I want to travel and write and dance and be a detective and fish bicycles out of the rivers of Amsterdam. I don't believe life should be spent in one place, doing one thing. There is far too much out there to do, learn and discover. Coming to grips with this has changed my entire plan and idea of what I'd like to do. How is it that when I was under the age of 6 I knew exactly what I wanted to do, it was feasible and I was determined to accomplish it yet now that I am at the age of which I need to be making a plan and these hard, serious decisions I don't have the slightest clue as to where the future will take me? This is a topic that consumes my brain daily. I feel like not knowing exactly where you're headed is a part of life. It can be exciting yet terrifying, especially when you're trying to plan for college and life in general. Maybe the fact of the matter is that you can't plan your life out at any age. Whether you're  5 or 16 or 47. And maybe that's okay.