Wednesday, July 11, 2018
Lexi b’s blog #9
For as long as I could remember, I have strived to be the best. I always wanted to be the smartest, funniest, and prettiest. I tried to mold my life into a perfect one. There is a word for to describe this personality trait that I have always had - perfectionist. It is apart of my conscious mind to naturally feel like everything is a competition. It was always a competition to have the best grade or be the smartest kid in the class, I would find myself disappointed if I failed to be number one. I would envy those who were the best. For many years, this vicious cycle of pressure to overperform, sadness, and jealousy would repeat itself. I spent too much time being so caught up in myself to actually enjoy everything around me. You see, being a perfectionist isn’t always bad. I can push myself to achieve any goal I set my mind to. My parents never had to worry about me falling short or failing to perform. My favorite joke is about how easy of a child I am. My parents love to complain about my attitude, but they can’t say anything about my work ethic. Within the past few months, I have began to change my ways. I realized that it is unrealistic for any person to be the best everything. I decided to still work hard but to not stress about things I can not control. If someone else beats me to first, I should be happy for them. I should not be jealous, because jealousy is the ugliest trait a person can have. This change in personality has brought about both happiness and a sense of freedom. I can now truly focus on myself. My best is my best and stressing about this will not change anything. For anybody who is dealing with this same trait, my advice to you is to learn to let go. Never lose your edge, but try to back off a little bit. A simple change of mind can change your whole life. Being a perfectionist can both make and break a person.
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Hey Lexi. I know what you mean. Every one wants to be the best. Being the way you are is not necessarily a bad thing. It can drive a person to make a big effort to make themselves better and do the best you can do. But like you said it can also be a bad thing. It can blind you to things that are important. It can make you very competitive and can drive some people away. I don't think you will have to worry much about that happening though. While, yes no one is perfect, I think you are doing a pretty good job.
ReplyDeleteI think we all have a little bit of a perfectionist streak in us. I've always strived to do my best, especially in school and softball. Like you, I had to learn that my best is the best I can do, and if I didn't exactly do how I wanted, I just needed to let it go and try harder next time. I think being a perfectionist is a good trait, as long as you don't take it overboard. It's okay to want to always do and be better, as long as you don't over stress about it and are happy.
ReplyDelete~Katie Towery